shattered dreams

Went for army open house at SISPEC and saw a few pals. glad to say they're fine,and told them all about the escapades in the open house,completed by a live firing exercise.

tried a few rifles. the sniper rifle is easy to operate(for all you sniper/CS fans,we don't use AWP),M16(of the ancien regime),a SAW and SAR 21 rifle,with at least 30 blanks and 5 live rounds fired. I must say it's quite a sturdy bullpup,although it shoots like a girl. and basically depending on your viewpoint,the scope can be a boon(according to the official line),or bane(according to Matt). not too accurate at longer distances(as found out to my detriment at the live firing range),but otherwise designed for maximum mobility and for the more delicate Asian physique

which brings me to the next story...

Dave. Initially you'd think he's insane trying to carry a rifle out of camp. something so ridiculous and never tried before for 20 years plus,but why he managed to do that?

throwing away a bright future with 1 month to go before he can say,phew?

Shattered Dreams. basically he used to be a cheery lad like many of us,growing up,and not caring much about our lives yet. until a divorce,a death and a lot more unfortunate happenings got into his head and overcame him.

to him,he craved for love.without parental care,he pinned his hopes on a girl. they used to get on fine,

until everything changed

never mind the accusations of being overly possessive by his ex. harrassing isn't the right direction for a relationship,no doubt,but he's just misunderstood. had he been forthcoming about his problems he had faced,at least it might not be the end. but unfortunately,by mercilessly dumping him,he simply crumbled.

forgive him

Although he has to face the music,and he rightly must,he really needs lots of help,which hasn't been forthcoming,and being misunderstood is least of his concerns. for someone emotionally so fragile,it'd be a shame if his life were to go downhill before that

a question

Requirement: a laptop.must be a latest,decent model,preferably with a DVD-RW,Windows Vista and well souped up

Explanation: fed up by jostling of 1 com by 4 people, and hearing of the benefits of 2 laptops in 1 house,I decided to have one of my own,and anyway we're adults and we need our stuff to be ever ready

Evaluation: it is probably effective against unauthorised MSN sign-ins. I have enough of seeing my fave contacts go online yet not being able to talk because some two faced busted is hogging the com. I also want to customise my com,something which is not always the case when 4 people are trying their darndest hardest to bump each other off com. also good for late night MSN-ing,something which has not been do-able
Unfortunately the drawback is that of 'envy',something which can be solved by sis having a laptop when she goes on to university. now 3 people jostling for the com is still troublesome,so why not I have one for myself. 2 left but that means I'll pull out my com stuff into my own wonderland and leave my bro to blame dad for leaving him to out-bid each other. excuse me,as a young adult i've enough of jostling with people for the com as if we're little kids and the com as an evil tool as percieved by my tech-unsavvy dad and 'secessionist' claims as seen by my 'tech-savvy' bro.

Example: gaming can then be done,without my bro trying to peek into my com or worry about anything

3 months

can we wait?

that's how difficult it is to keep everything from falling apart. time flies by so fast,and by then it's another sorry situation as you wished your nightmare isn't over when it is.

all because it was so traumatic

love poem

I do not claim to be even aiming for NUS FASS,but I'll try writing a poem,because I'm simply bored

Love
a sweet story
that swift moment
when you've had a brush
with your eventual crush
the first impression
soon led to expression
of a hope to be together

Love
a sour grape
the only gripe
if you don't have one
you long for one
only to be dashed
when you pour grief
on the sour taste

Love
a bitter pill
a better man
or so we thought
as we fought
over many things
and fret the thinks
of the 'other thing'

Love
a spicy sauce
adding the spice
at whatever price
repressed it flares
excess it bares
the very soul painted
by the tainted

Love
so fragile
amazing that chatter
would shatter dreams
you split apart
but glued again
adding to the blues
that led to the boos

Love
so sturdy
go steady
making a promise
breaking it soon after
freaking out
too late
you tempted fate

Love
for a while
it lasts that long
as fast as it goes
you tried to build
like a tower
it only wilts
like a flower

Love
for ever
everlasting
a perpetual feeling
eternally reeling
from the side effects
of being by your side
for better or for worse


Love
a funny thing
a sober truth
so unpredictable
yet so predictable
it's in fashion
leads to passion
for something...special

I think my poetry skills suck.all for being an ex-lit student.maybe I haven't wrote poems all my life,or i'm really unsuitable for lit

leave your poetic comments here

la vie en rose

life is just like that

so delicate,so beautiful,but just so...temporary

that little tingle in your mind

time flies...

well life hasn't been very extraordinary,but it comes to a point where we are going into pastures anew.as the girls start university and the guys wait redfaced while they slog it out,their seniors being thrown into the hurly-burly of the world,and the juniors simply helpless even till then...

that's it/it wilts

When can my heart beat again?
When does the pain ever end?
When do the tears stop from running over?
When does "You'll get over it" begin?
I hear what you're saying,
But I swear that it's not making sense.
So when can I see you...

When can I see you again?
When can my heart beat again?
When can I see you again, babe?
When can I breathe once again?
And when can I see you...

When does my "Someday" begin?
When I'll find someone again.
And what if I still am not truly over?
What am I supposed to do then, baby, baby...?
Do you see what I'm saying,
Even if, if it's not making sense?
So when can I see you...

When can I see you again, babe, yeah?
When can my heart beat again, yeah?
When can I see you again, yeah, babe?
And when can I breathe once again?
And when can I see you...again?

Mmm...

Yeah, baby,
Please hear what I'm saying,
Even if, if it's not making sense, baby.
So when can I see you again?

When can I see you again, yeah, yeah?
Can my heart beat again, baby, yeah?
When can I see you again, babe?
And when can I breathe once again, yeah?
And when can I see you, yeah, again.

Wanna see you again,
Again...

killed in action

we know how people die after seeing the word 'vietnam' on their econs scripts

enough of the Vietcong

Thaddeus C

though I might not know you personally,I just hope you found a better place up there. there is just so much I can say,but to go off in a blaze of glory after you did yourself and your peers proud,all efforts aren't likely to be wasted

many people haven't seen the blood,sweat,tears,...,that puts to training. though we might debate about all those circumstances for a long time,I just want to tell you,you're still a warrior

last life left

finally someone I missed so much gave me all the news about who's gone where

Germ(aine).Joyz/Joyce.Deb.Rara/Sarah.Joce.VanC.Norma.CY: they stuck together through thick and thin.that notwithstanding I suspect all are taking lit classes.NUS FASS(Fac of Arts and Soc Sci)
has a whole gamut of courses and I don't know any details. it was late in the night when Germ smsed me. sorry Germ for the book snatching incident,Joyz for giving you a lil bit too much to handle(altho thanks for tolerating-barely),deb for making my self seem misunderstood,Rara and Joce for being a little too friendly,VanC and Norma for slackin during PW and Chen Yu for a lotta stuff which i doubt you'd forgive

NUS Biz: Rosanne. prospective junior? I promise there won't be anymore antics like last year. enjoy your time there and I think I'll look for you next time for serious business.and yeah,scully you look different

NTU Lit: Meryl.Jialing. Firstlove called Lit. I think I'll miss you both.I won't be applying for lit(I've other plans),so you're guaranteed lots of time mugging peacefully. but then,i don't know if you'll become a big hit in lit circles,so keep fingers crossed

NTU Masscomm: Ci and Jang. I see the latter almost every week. but for Ci,I miss you. and I don't know if you'll ever see me again

SMU law: PPX.impressive.judgment reserved whether I'll go there or I'll 'terrorise'(
the above word is not intended to instil any fear) NUS. but there shall be drastically little nonsense if I go both places.2 years in NS and 4 more months of VC style torture will see to that

Yiwen: I don't know if there will ever be a class gathering,but inasmuch as I'd miss you,the fact that you're bound for Toronto will mean that ...(whatever I say won't count)

Daryl and Jeremy: allegedly in NUS.I can't confirm with them.
Cleavon: SMU.unconfirmed

Soldier X: ? under heavy artillery fire

Dolce Vita

things never meant to be that boring nowadays,just that there are no more things to say about. quite a nightmare to think about the vast killing fields that come next.

can your fate be decided on a few papers alone?yes and no. eventually we have to go through judgment day,and as everything flashs back while you're terminated,would you want to go off well?

well I certainly hope so.I'll be back

Last Stand

I think I might be gone by then.but it's time to kill.there's nothing to lose,but one wrong move,there's nothing to gain either

to the death!

EMERGE

I'm so in love with the Pet Shop Boys. sounds so retro and futuristic at the same time...mann I can't wait to buy their greatest hits

Whatever the case EMERGE has been a rocking 4 days full of fresh revelations,helluva lotta fun and God as always made a rocking day even more rocking in His own house for all of CHC

Day 1: POS! morning was the normal conference session. when night falls,though,it's VERY different. though the JC cluster didn't win the top prize,it's kinda great to shine on the hallowed stage. Halleujah! too bad the guys have to watch the service and STRIKEFORCE via videolink.rocks but not enough. especially when broadcasted overseas

Day 2: got remedial,so only evening. the only time SIM/SMU climbed over the JC guys. and I was lucky to sit with Wayne even if I made it at 6.55-normally ushers would start carving up tribal territory

Day 3: come 1h before EMERGE to line up for seats.this is not a joke. I came only 30 mins before the session starts,and I basically can forget about any seats,but I was lucky yet again.there's a very long queue and I nearly got marooned in the back entrance.good grief!

Day 4: THE END. well,if it is,then it is a good one. towards the end,the first time I stayed 6h in the same hall,and apparently the JC guys were kept on tenterhooks before they got a third straight cluster trophy(by virtue of bronze medals!) camera whoring awaits

that's just a few of the revelations. I shall tell you more when I remember.meanwhile,peace out!



P.S: video quality may be a little bit off.and don't count on FBI technology to identify anyone out there since you can't make out the faces

Surprise

my fren just managed to burn the Borat movie into a vcd form. which means my birthday present,though 2 weeks late,is still a present. life's been fine, except for the fact that my frens in AJ were talking about the black wednesday 2 days back where we just lost everything. sad

equally odd is that there are a few rude shocks this year in the A division. VJC and SAJC,oddly missed out on the soccer finals. RJC (shock) and MJC (ok lor) won on penalties...which means that many were commenting how funny the final would look like. it capped off a miserable year for VJ,where their netballers crashed out of the first round as favourites for second,boys hockey agonisingly sent out on penalty flicks and their boys,normally functioning, couldn't get out of the group of death.

that means the DSA is turning into a territory cutting exercise. what's with RJC and HCI playing out their fantasies of winning their track and field championships at the expense of the rest; the painful battle of ACSI,ACJC,SAJC and RJC snatching rugby balls like kids;(AJC,NYJC and TJC) and MJC having their eggs forced into one basket with respect to volleyball and soccer, and VJC trying their best to live out their passion...it's a crazy world

circle in the sand

what a birthday it was.didn't wake up to expect a mayday shock.but what's over is over and there must be more drama.I'm promised a borat dvd next week by a few of my buddies and I got my favourite breadtalk blackforest cake on that day as a surprise.

from another gang of my buddies things back at AJ have been a little jittery when you have soccer looking as if they were in the scrap heap with 5 straight losses.I feel sad and the other guys back at camp would. and except for our volleyball guys the rest get dirty jobs in second rounds,much less the tragic combo of AC+RJ(hockey boys) and HC+RJ (netball).

haha blessed are those who bought Sun's new CD yesterday,because they happily got to see their idol.not Puff who thought Sunday got...but there's a catch.they probably are sulking at the airport,trying to get past the barricade of minders