absolut crapp

this is one of the posts which I think i'm going gibberish...yikes

It is really true that in love,there's no gain if there's no pain.much less I don't want to be heartbroken,sometimes the best thing to do is temporarily occupy yourself with other thoughts.But escaping isn't an option for me.somehow I would have taken a vow of chastity,if not for the fact that there's nothing that could occupy my thoughts for the long term.philosophically speaking you can actually give excuses to say you're busy,or you're just not fated for it...but when everythings smooth and then you feel your empty heart,it really makes people feel painful,the void of the mental state that isn't filled easily or quickly.

In love there's basically 2 types of people.one who are always fortunate in his/her love life,one who wished he/she won't be bombarded by love messages from the opposite sex,but very few are those who have any good character to balance their looks.and there's another who might not be instantly attractive to the opposite sex,and could only look enviously as others walk around like a couple,delivering sweet nothings to each other while he/she deep down inside wondered how it would be nice to have the same thing happen.it is painful for them even to go out with the opposite sex,never mind getting anyone to really consider a serious relationship

they might suffer more pain when it comes to being steady with someone else,but there's a freaky twist to this story.somehow like the ugly duckling story there's always a swan in them and then one fine day,when least expected,someone saw through their otherwise dull outside to see in them a very nice person who is really quite underrated.but here's the catch,they tend to panic because this hadn't happened to them before.in the end it all boils down to patience,and it's a very happily ever after story

i don't know,and I won't know what would happen in the end